Thursday, August 22, 2019

Natalie Beatham, Torrington CT and Evan - From July 2018 - Dec 2018

Natalie Beatham, Torrington CT and Evan - From July 2018 - Dec 2018

In July 2018 I purchased a Harley Davidson motorcycle. I remember at this time Josh (ex boyfriend) was in jail. I remember giving Natalie rides on the motorcycle. Not long rides because the motorcycle scared the shit out of her. Can't say I blame her.
It was around this time I must have started to develop some feelings for Beatham but did not want to admit it to myself. The reason I say that is because one day I dropped her off at her house on the motorcycle. I then went a block down the road to the Subway which is visible from the windows of her house.
I was ordering a grinder and out of the corner of my eye I could see her walking past the window of subway. She tried to be quiet so I wouldn't know she was there. She opened the door, came running up behind me with the biggest widest smile I had ever seen in my life and from behind, she put her arms around my neck, gave me a huge hug and a kiss on the cheek.
I know that came from her heart. There was no way she could have faked that smile and the emotions she was displaying for me. I felt it and it tugged at my heart but I fought it. I was afraid to feel because of where I am at now. She promised me and her brother she would never hurt me. So much for promises.

Natalie Beatham Torrington CT asks ME About Being in a Relationship

That's right folks. In October of 2018, Natalie called me and told me she had something important she wanted to ask me. Don't ask me how, but SOMEHOW, I was pretty sure she wanted to ask me about dating. I played dumb though because I did not want to assume and embarrass me or her.
I asked Natalie what she wanted to talk about. In a sheepish tone of voice she said "I don't know". I replied with "I'll be right over and pick you up and bring you back here so we can talk".
I went right over and got her and brought her to my house. She sat down on the couch. The TV was on and we sat and watched that for a few minutes. It was apparent she needed a little coaxing so that is what I did. I asked Natalie "so what is it that is important that you want to talk about"?
Again, Natalie replied with "I don't know" in her sheepish tone of voice. I then say "Is it about me and you going out as boyfriend and girlfriend"? She replied "yes". My reply "there is just one small problem". "what"? Natalie said. I pointed to her belly. She was about 7 month pregnant at that point. My attitude at the time was that I don't like kids and she knew that. As soon as I pointed to her belly she said "ok take me home". That was the end of boyfriend/girlfriend relationship talk between Natalie and I.
At this point I was still sane. Why would a guy who is retired and has everything, date a girl who has nothing, is pregnant by another guy, smokes cigarettes and crack and shoots heroin and lives with a controlling father who thinks Natalie is his girlfriend?? In a couple of months I begin to lose my ability to think rationally and make wise decisions.
Again - for all those told the BS story by Natalie, Natalie asked ME to be in a relationship with her - I TURNED HER DOWN.
My assumptions were that because Josh was coming out of jail in a couple of months, she wanted to know if she should have her dad sponsor him and let him live there. In other words, she wanted to try me and her going out but if that was not going to happen she was going back to Josh. Natalie was never one to embrace and enjoy being alone.

Natalie Beathams Slimiest Move - Multiple Godfathers for Bernice

Towards the end of 2018 Natalie was about 7 months pregnant. If was around this time that Natalie said that Josh and her discussed it and they would love for me to be the godfather of Bernice. I found out about a week later Natalie also said the exact same thing to her Brother David. It does NOT get ANY slimier and skankier and lower than this.
God took Bernice from Natalie and Josh and rightly so. Would ANYONE reading this who knows the real Natalie let Natalie go anywhere NEAR their child, let alone raise it. Natalie will NEVER be able to see Bernice. Thank God for Bernice. She now has a shot at a normal life with normal people.

Natalie Beathams False Promises

It was around this time as well that Natalie started tossing false promises my way. She would say stuff like "next week I am getting some money so I am going to treat you when we go to Waterbury". The promised day would come and go and she failed to live up to her promise. Another false promise example - I would say, "how about you and I go to a restaurant this Saturday night"? She would say yes and reply with "and I'll pay because I'll sell my methadone and have money". I would not mention it again for the rest of the week to see if she really wanted to do that or was just pulling my chord.
Friday would come around and I would bring up going to the restaurant. She would always have some excuse to get out of it. These false promise things happened quite a bit in the second half of 2018. It didn't really bother me too much. I just shrugged it off as "that's Natalie being her dishonest self again".

The One Natalie Beathams False Promise for Christmas That Finally Hurt

All of Natalies previous false promises did not bother me a whole lot. But in December 2018 she promised me she was going to buy me a sewing machine, of all things. Why a sewing machine? I had mentioned the thought that any clothes you buy somewhere can be improved upon and if I had a sewing machine I could do that. I of course could have purchased my own but never did. She promised me a sewing machine for Xmas.
I remembered all her previous false promises and figured she was full of crap again. BUT ... for SOME reason that I do not understand, I held on to that promise in my mind. In fact I even told her that I felt it was just another lie, another false promise, and she assured me and once again, promised on Abby and Isabelles (her first two DCF seized daughters) life, that she would get me that sewing machine for me for Xmas. I think her putting that promise on her daughters lives made me believe her. Oops my bad.
The end of Christmas day ... no sewing machine ... no phone call. To my surprise, I went crazy. I called her and was like "where the f*** is my sewing machine you lying f*** bit**!!." We were aguing and screaming at each other, by phone, the rest of the day and all of the next day. Many of the times she did not answer, understandably because the conversations were anything but pleasant. The day after Xmas she finally did answer and I could hear that she was in a car. I asked her where she was going. She said she was coming back from picking Josh up from jail and bringing him back to her house.
Again, to my total surprise I freaked, but in a different way. When she told me she was in the car bringing Josh back home, I panicked. Even though she was not technically my girlfriend at that time, it felt like knife went through my heart. I FELT like I was losing the love of my life to another guy. Really confused me because prior to Xmas, I thought I had no feelings for her but BOY was I wrong about that.
She stopped answering my calls for a day or so. I remember I was miserable and hurting. She finally answered at night, about 3 days after Xmas. I was so relieved because I didn't know at that point if she was ever going to call me again or talk to me ever again. In fact I was so relieved I broke down bawling like a little baby over the phone.
Through my tears, I confessed my surprising strong feelings for her and how I wanted to be with her now. She said YES and so began one of the weirdest AND most painful relationships in the world.
If you like drama, you are going to love the relationship.
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